When you make noise

So I walk into an audiology office cause my hearing aid won't stop squealing. The lady hears me at the front desk and ask me to wait as she checks a patient out. As I'm waiting to let her know I need to see someone about fixing this noise, the audiologist walks out. She ask one of her older patients "is your hearing aids turned on?" I smile but she doesn't see me and she isn't associating the noise to be me. The lady at the front desk is trying to get her attention and keep checking the patient out. It quite hilarious to me and I wasn't going to say anything at all because frankly I wanted to see how good her hearing is! Those who hear well are able to locate from which direction the sound is coming from so I've been told cause I can not do that nor can I hear the actual squealing. What I hear is mostly sounds fading in and out. Needless to say, the doc had to be told it was me and I proceeded to tell her "I'm here to get this very issue fix!". She smiled and made her way back to her office. I know it's going to get taken care of cause she left a patient in her office. She knew high pitch squeal probably was driving everyone who could hear, insane. Which leads me to ponder this thought...."When you make a noise or some noise, you get everyone who can hear the noise, attention." The only thing you have to focus on is what type of noise are you making?" Is it a noise that comforts or soothes? Is it loud enough to cause people to go into action or soft enough to be ignored? Have you been making the same noise for so long that no one notices? Or do you need to change the noise or the people who hears it? Cause frankly, what I witness in this doctor office was pretty much all of the above. What I took away from the experience was more than I anticipated because after all, I'm trying to silence the darn thing!!

Redemption

When my heavenly father redeemed me, he knew he had a deeply created relationship. Since I was knee high to a grasshopper I talked to him. Now as I look back over my life, I can see his presence. So now when I look forward I use my faith to see the great things he's going to do because I am redeemed! My brother Christ, holy divine Spirit and Gracious Father, I love you! Thank you for saving me!

When water doesn't make a sound....

To wash my hair, I have to take my hearing aids out. Whenever I have to take them out, I am reminded of just how deaf I am. Yes, as an hearing impaired person even you can have moment where you forget that you are in fact deaf. That the aids only add a Little bit of sound to your life, it's just that an Aid!

I took them out, wash my hair and then proceeded to go get a shower cap to deep condition my hair. Walked around the house, played with the kids, came back to the sink and OH, the water was still running! This would have been not a panic moment if the water bill hadn't gone up a few cents! Well it has and now I have a nice size bill to look forward to! We talking a least an hour of water running that did nothing but just run. Oh boy and oh well, when water doesn't make a sound..... well you kinda forget it running!!!

The hurt and pain of being Hearing Impaired

This weekend was an awaken for me and my family due to the new discovers that was made last week My 5 month old will indeed need hearing aids and will be fitted by next months. My 1 1/2 year old will be tested for a hearing loss as well as given a speech test to see if he is developing as he should. Until he takes the tests, we do not know if his hearing has changed since birth. He has shown some signs of loss but he could be just misbehaving as well.

This has rocked my family to the core. Some are not saying anything about it and moving forward as if its unreal, some are breaking down and crying while others are just pissed off! The question in most mind is why us? Why an entire family? Well, I've long came to peace with my hearing loss. It no longer causes pain for me nor does it upset me. I've come to appreciate the silent and look at it as a gift from God. I will go into details about that in another post, but for now, I must deal with the hurt and pain.

My mom, who I love dearly was very upset yesterday. She is the first generation hearing impaired and in her mind, she is the 16 year old girl who they told was hearing impaired and that it would not affect her children. She says clearly someone was lying!! I consoled her and I let her know that we are such strong individuals! She views our impairment as a problem and I told her to view it as a gift. Remind yourself of all the things you like about not being able to hear. There are many pluses if you only stop to look at them. It took some talking but I am not 100% sure she is totally comfortable. There will be a new reality once my baby boy is fitted with hearing aids and then it will be determined if my 1 year old is OK.

As a parent and a daughter, I know that I will lead everyone through the muck and we will be just fine. I know that I have been equipped to go through this time period in our lives. I know that I have new battle to fight on another front, but for now, I will focus on the hurt and pain that is in my family for now, because it will be replace with Joy very soon!!!

Introduction

Finally! A spot on the worldwide web, I can place my thoughts and not have to be slowed down by the computer trying to load them on my website. I was attempting to do this on my actual web store but for some reason the template would load a few words, preview, load a few more words, preview again. Talk about aggravating!! I was about to pull my hair out! Then I tried to post my blog on facebook and the name facebook to me means brief. I hate to see that little link, see more..... Not! If I am scrolling through my news feed, the first couple of lines better catch me or I am going to keep going. I got things to do, things to post, places to go and people to see!

So here I am! In blogger ville!! The place for people who like to read inexpensive books, meaning no cost! I bet there are people right now thinking who needs realty TV when I can just go read a random story and use my imagination, riiiiiight? Has anyone taking a count of the population to see who or how many people still read?!? After all, we have direct TV, time warner cable and AT & T Uverse! We can see all the degrading shows for a niiice price who needs to read a blog?!?!? Sheesh!


I do, and you reading this, do! There is a lot to be said about a person that can sit at a computer, have a thought and clearly, with little to no grammar error, type them for you to read!!

Just how do I plan to use this site, well, I want to write about the grandoise life I have lived so far and the crap that comes with it! I want to make mistakes here and learn about them, then move forward!! I want to read what others think and maybe get a free education out of it. I am sure there are things I do not know about my hearing impaired life and I pray there are things I just have not discovered that can help my family as well as others!! Soooo, the blogging is about to begin!! I think you can subscribe to me and I hope that you do because it is going to get very interesting......

Discovery of Self

As a kid growing up, I never envisioned that I would be on the journey that I am on now. I wanted to be an attorney not a boutique owner. A day in court changed my entire life…..The judge spoke low to me and there was so much commotion in the court room that I could not hear a thing! I was left in a daze as I walked out of the court room and was asked did I understand anything. The reply was a very sad no because this also meant I did not know what I was going to do with the rest of my life. For more than 10 years I was lost and I tried everything under the sun. The friends that I had did not understand what was happening to me and as a result, I lost a lot of them during my 20’s. No one seemed to understand the displacement that I felt because from the outside looking into me, they felt there was no reason I couldn’t be as successful as they were. Having grown up right beside me, they had forgotten that I was truly deaf; they had forgotten that I had achieved so much with their love and vote of confidence in me. At some point I became just like them which was the great illusion because when I went to class on a college campus, they were not there. When I went to apply for a job, they were not there. I couldn’t turn to them and say, what did he/she say? Then share a laugh when I told them my interpretation.  This, my mother Julia Maree, said would be the true test of my friendships. She always told me, they would only be around for a season, but I never understood how deep that ran. 

So the more I faltered and my dreams deferred, the more it seemed my friends alienated themselves from me, the more I had to learn who Jesus was. The more I learned who he was/is, the more I blossomed. Now I know there are some people I know who don’t believe and you’ve used other methods to explain how you overcome or you believe that things were just you being where you needed to be. I know there are some that say I attract what I am……Then I must be Jesus, because he came to me and save me totally! He gave me purpose and he spoke through some very key people in my life that caused me to move beyond the mountains that I was facing. I am both proud and humble by the life I have lived so far. To those friends who alienated me when I was deeply troubled, it’s not your fault, you were simply being used to draw out God’s greatness in me……..

Are you "Functionally" Deaf?

About 2 to 4 of every 1,000 people in the United States are "functionally deaf," though more than half became deaf relatively late in life; fewer than 1 out of every 1,000 people in the United States became deaf before 18 years of age.

After reading this starling statistics I realize that my family was a rarity that is never talked about. I realize that what I do on a daily basic and the reason I feel so tired at night is really a miracle in itself and I thanked God! I woke up thinking about how yesterday went for me, not just in business but in life. After reading that statistics up above I realized that the need to tell my story is something will never go away until its told. My name is Sabrina Davis, and I was born Deaf/hard of hearing. That sounds like the beginning of an AAA meeting but truly it’s the beginning of me taking a stand. It’s the beginning of me putting together a legacy that my children can follow because they need whatever I can leave behind for them. 

Deaf/hard of hearing is hereditary.    At least for my family.   I have never heard of this happening to anyone else and at this very moment in my life, I have a strong desire to understand it, embrace it and change how the deaf/hard of hearing community is viewed here on this earth.

I am a TABOO, I CAN NOT HEAR, but yet I talk, I CAN GET HIT BY A CAR, but I DRIVE ONE. Anything over 3 FEET AWAY, is null and void. If my BACK IS TURNED, you just wasted your breath. I have three children, and two are deaf. God does not mess up………….