The hurt and pain of being Hearing Impaired

This weekend was an awaken for me and my family due to the new discovers that was made last week My 5 month old will indeed need hearing aids and will be fitted by next months. My 1 1/2 year old will be tested for a hearing loss as well as given a speech test to see if he is developing as he should. Until he takes the tests, we do not know if his hearing has changed since birth. He has shown some signs of loss but he could be just misbehaving as well.

This has rocked my family to the core. Some are not saying anything about it and moving forward as if its unreal, some are breaking down and crying while others are just pissed off! The question in most mind is why us? Why an entire family? Well, I've long came to peace with my hearing loss. It no longer causes pain for me nor does it upset me. I've come to appreciate the silent and look at it as a gift from God. I will go into details about that in another post, but for now, I must deal with the hurt and pain.

My mom, who I love dearly was very upset yesterday. She is the first generation hearing impaired and in her mind, she is the 16 year old girl who they told was hearing impaired and that it would not affect her children. She says clearly someone was lying!! I consoled her and I let her know that we are such strong individuals! She views our impairment as a problem and I told her to view it as a gift. Remind yourself of all the things you like about not being able to hear. There are many pluses if you only stop to look at them. It took some talking but I am not 100% sure she is totally comfortable. There will be a new reality once my baby boy is fitted with hearing aids and then it will be determined if my 1 year old is OK.

As a parent and a daughter, I know that I will lead everyone through the muck and we will be just fine. I know that I have been equipped to go through this time period in our lives. I know that I have new battle to fight on another front, but for now, I will focus on the hurt and pain that is in my family for now, because it will be replace with Joy very soon!!!